The Anxiety of It All

First off, I would like to wish everyone a Happy New Year. I wish you beautiful moments, treasured memories, and all the blessing a heart can know as you begin your journey into this new year. Here it is, 2018. Who would have thunk it? I just posted the other day on Facebook that 33 years ago that day, I packed up everything I could into two suitcases to move to another state to live with a man I had only known for six months. And here we are today, still together. To quote the GD’s song lyric: “What a long, strange trip it’s been.”

I guess what I am now feeling these days with regards to my work is called Writer’s Anxiety. At least, that is what I am calling it. To start with, quite honestly, sales suck. I have done the best I can, but I really don’t have a budget for ads and such and rely solely on what I can do by myself, but even that seems ineffective. So I am sort of at a standstill. I don’t want to continue writing a book when I can’t even sell the first two books. So, for now, the next book is on hold. I have had a few people I know read the books and they have said some really nice things, so I am keeping that as a positive for it all and not giving up.

In the meantime, I am learning. There are many great authors out there that I am connecting with in different writing groups on Facebook and their help has been awesome. It has also been helpful to connect with many new authors who are struggling, just like me, to find their place in the writing world and make it a success for themselves. There is a lot of great advice out there, but no one seems to have a magic wand to wave and make things perfect. Where’s MY fairy godmother??  😉

The downside to seeing comments from a lot of authors? Some of them are sharing their earnings for the year and sometimes it can get demoralizing. I don’t doubt that this was not their intention, as they just wanted to share their excitement, but there are those of us who are battling to get to that level, or even close to it. It’s like the proverbial dangling carrot in front of you that you can’t seem to reach.

This is part of the anxiety that I am facing lately. The rest centers around some recent contests I have entered. I am waiting, somewhat impatiently for word on just how I did. I guess I am hoping that somehow, one of these contests will have a positive outcome and give me the validation I seem to be needing to continue this journey as an author. I am also hoping that it would give me and my work a much needed push in the right direction.

So, I sit here and I wait. I check my email more times a day than I ever have. I check the Facebook group where the winning announcements are being posted. And again I wait.

And I write a blog, and I post an excerpt from my second book on my author page. I keep on plugging along and I will try to keep the same mantra going that I have in the poem I wrote at the top of the page. Someday fortune will smile down upon me.

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Anne Kramer spends her daytime work hours as a Quality Analyst for a major insurance company. At one time, she used to write responses to complaint letters and it gave her a flair for writing that she was unaware of and honed her editing skills. Anne started writing articles for an online forum, branched out to a couple of guest blogging spots and then did some player interviews for a print magazine. In 2012, Anne received an email from a contact at SkyHorse Publishing asking if she would be interested in a project to write a book for them about her favorite hobby. The Ultimate Book of Darts was released in 2013. For two years now, Anne has had her own blog dedicated to darts. Recently, she has taken up writing romance novels and the first two were self published through Amazon. Anne is currently working on her third novel and looking at branching out into the freelance writing world.

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